Surgery date

First of all, I've always got a rule of never re-reading my blog cos it makes me cringe regardless of whether my feelings at the time were valid or not.

Anyway, I've not written in a while due to moving into my new apartment which is lovely and actually feels like my home which is something I never felt in the old place due to it being manky and cold. Also I've been so stressed fighting for surgery and other general emotions.

I have finally won my argument for surgery and have seen the surgeon. My surgery date is 19th February 2013 or sooner if she can fit me in. Normal people would be excited beyond belief at this news but I'm still holding back a bit cos nothing has gone the 'correct' way so far, I know nothing can really go wrong now but who knows with the NHS these days?! The surgeon said she will leave my nipples attached and then sew me back up to save nipple sensation but she said that if it's too complicated she will have to take them off and stitch them back on. I'm not to do anything for 2 weeks whilst I recover but for full recovery it should be 6 weeks. I have a bunch of lovely friends,partner and family who I know will look after me.

Last week I came back from another TBA retreat and again it was brilliant. This time there were cis men (men who were born men) there which I thought would be weird but it was actually really 'normal' and was interesting to hear from them. I've never not been uncomfortable being naked around cis men what with my experience of sleeping with a cis guy for two years but the less said about that the better haha. Anyway leaving TBA is sad cos you've shared a safe space with guys who know how you feel or have felt the same then you get ready to go back into the real weird which for the first few days can be a massive come down which I've found difficult especially when you can't speak to certain people. I had my surgery appointment two days after as well so I was feeling nervous about that.

Life in general is going good, love life is going great but thats all i'm saying.