self pity #2

I'll try end on a high.

For the past three week I've been ill in one way or another, I had a cold and sore throat which made me feel like shit for a few days or two. Then i bought two new binders, i wore one without washing it which made me have an allergic reaction on my back, i got two rashes which bloody hurt and itched. I don't do being ill well, i hate it. My sister was ill the other day, feeling dizzy and sick which she passed onto me so i spent christmas day in pain cos i was binding which made my rash hurt and feeling like i was gonna pass out and throw up. I'm just sick of feeling run down and hurting. To be honest I think I need a good nights sleep which i'm not getting here at my mum and dads cos i'm not in my own bed.

Anyway, I went out with the girls (and Tom) on friday for a curry in Burnley which was good. Bumped into an old friend which was nice :). I really appreciate it when people notice how different I look and how they say they are proud of me since they last saw me, it's lovely of them to tell me :).

Onto transition stuff, my grandma sent me a card that said 'To a special Grandson' on it so she's getting there. She got me a present for christmas, she usually gives me money. She got me pyjama bottoms, they were womens tartan ones which are a bit androgynos with glitter on, I said to my mum I didn't want them and she understood. It's obviously not cos i'm ungratreful it's more of a case of i refuse to wear anything female regardless as to whether it's nightwear or not for obvious reasons. I have my T shot on the 5th January, my doctor is doing it and he said is going to get my T for me which I don't like cos I don't like not being in control of it but i'll sure it'll be ok.

Home to Manchester on the 29th.. :)