I've been thinking about periods a lot recently. Not because I miss them,oh no far from it but for a few days I've been having phantom period pains, like the sort I had before I got my period. It is probably mostly cos I still have the 'equipment' but it's broken down so it's trying to make stuff happen and failing.
Anyway I was also thinking about how having one controlled my life. I know it sounds stupid but it did. I used to fret when I'd get it and plan around it,mostly involving me not leaving the house for 4 or 5 days or if I did then I'd not be out for very long. When I did get it I'd go into my own world and I'd totally ignore everything/everyone until I felt I was over the worse of it.
In December it'll be a year since i last one and that anxious feeling I got every month has gone, I only realised this last week. It's not a feeling i miss, I can actually enjoy life now without having to miss out on stuff.
In other news, my counsellor rang this morning and I've not spoken to her in months, the first thing she said was 'oh my god you sound so different' which was nice :). She asked how I was getting on with everything so i informed her and she said if I get a no from the PCT then i can appeal.
Anyway it's only 2 week till my next T shot :D
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