Comfortable

For the past couple of days i've been thinking about how i see myself. I'm feeling a lot more comfortable with how i look and feel. I know it sounds weird but i've spent so long trying to be a man in everyone elses eyes instead of my own, i've tried to be a mans man i.e being butch and all the sort of stuff, now i feel comfortable to be 'me' whether that be a slightly camp person or not, i am a man and i don't need to fit into societies view of what one is. This is all i'm saying on the subject cos i don't want to go into something i'm going to say at the session i'm hopefully going to do at MORF.

Got my next injection on the 4th April.

I'm still feeling like i need to find someone, not like a relationship. Just someone i can ring up and they are just there. I think i'm going to end whatever it is i have with A cos i just don't find him that attractive and i don't wnt anything with him in that way, i feel bad but i'm getting more confident to saying No,probably a bit too much but oh well.

MORF tomorrow, i'm going to be telling guysa botu mine and franks idea for a session on Pre T/masuclinity and pressure to conform, i hope i can do it.

In other news i'm moving to Manchester/Salford hopefully in August,it'll make my life so much easier